[Homemade coldslaw]

I have some with me for lunch today, it accompanies some tomato and basil chicken and salad. I was quite pleased at how it turned out and it was very easy to do. Although its a bit oniony so i may be a bit breathy today, but i have gum so its all good.

Here’s how you do it:

Get some carrots, white or red cabbage, around half an onion or less if you want, its up to you. Some mayo and a little bit of salad cream. Wazz** up the veg until its quite fine, or if you like it chunky just roughly cut it up, mix through a good dollop of mayo and around a tablespoon of salad cream. I added the salad cream as John loves it – turned out beautiful and creamy.

**stick in the food processor.

I have started to eat much more healthily and its much easier in the summer as all you can be bothered with is salad in the hot weather and its much more enjoyable. I hate that i’ve put on a little weight and its starting to get to me a little to be honest… I usually put on weight in the summer for some reason and take it off in the winter, which is backwards compared to most people! I need to have a think about excercise as well, which i’m rubbish at. I’m not built for running and i sweat like a pig during aerobics – i do enjoy a long walk though so i think thats the way to go.

Are we taking bets on how long this is going to last?

Paul Weller – Cold Moments

Fast becoming one of my favourite Weller tracks. Although its from the most recent 22 Dreams album, which to be honest wouldn’t have won him any new fans, but older ones will recognise it as classic-heart-and-soul-on-a-disc-Mr-Paul-Weller.

PS. i can’t bloody well embed the video for you’ll need to click on the link. Embedding has been disabled by request apparently. For every bloody version i can find.

[shippin up to boston]

Today has been a really mixed day. It started off really shite, got a bit better, then ended up shite again. Mostly because of my own way of dealing with things.

I woke up late, when I’m supposed to be trying to get in to work on time. I haven’t blogged about this do far, as I’ve been a little embarrassed to say it out loud. One of my peers has decided to keep score for the amount of times I’m late against the amount of times I’m actually in on time.

To make things more interesting there is also a wager involved. First to 14 buy’s lunch. So if I’m late before I’m early 14 times in a row, I buy lunch. If I’m early 14 more times that I’m late then he needs to buy me lunch. The thing is, its up on a board for all to see. I feel stupid. I know why he’s done it. He understands the way my brain works, its like shaming me into being on time for work. I don’t get any shit for being late, but its always been flexible. Until he came along. I never used to mind working on a but late, or working through lunch, but since he’s started this shit I take every break and I leave on time.

Now, what pissed me right off this morning, was I was in on time. But it was tight, I’ll admit that. But I was on time. By the time I signed in, got settled it was 10.03am. I start at 10.00am, supposed to be. So just as my arse cheeks skiffed the chair, he shrilly say’s and I quote:

‘Another late mark for you, hunny’

I felt quite annoyed by this, it was said in front of the WHOLE office – ok so there are only a few of us, but the few that were in, made comment.

I mean, I know I should be on time for work, but when its always been flexible for him to come in and just change things, in this humiliating manner is just not on. Yunno?

Time keeping was never a problem for me until I had my breakdown. Ever since then, its almost been a conscious decision to not turn up on time, or give any more of myself to that company than I need to. I don’t get paid for the extra time I put in, I don’t get paid for the extra job that I’ve been effectively doing for the last 2 years so why the hell should I? It barely pays enough to pay the monthly bills. When I raised my concerns I was told that I was ‘lucky to be in a job’ and I should just suck it up, keep my head down and get on with my work, as I was ‘very good at my job’. I agree in this climate, I am very luck to have a job, but I’d probably be better off on benefits if the truth be told.

This wasn’t intended to be a blog about work, or a ranty rant, but man, I do feel better.

[plus 1, and the CBB winner?]

I have just watched the funniest, wittiest programme ever, with a banging soundtrack to boot. Plus 1 Its all about a bloke who needs to find a date for his ex girlfriends wedding, who just happens to be marrying, Duncan – From Blue. Its brilliant, I recommend it. Did anyone else catch it whilst waiting for the BB finalist?

Oh, and by the way – UK? Not only have you let me down with the Christmas No. 1, but voting Ulrika as the CBB winner? What are you lot on?? Well done, you bunch of knobs.

[toothache]

I’ve been off work the last two days with the most horrible toothache ever imaginable.  I’m pretty sure its the worst anyone has ever had, like ever. I’ve never felt pain like this in all my life.

So currently I’m in bed feeling very sorry for myself.  Its hard to eat anything which is also annoying as I love my food ;o)

I’m keeping myself occupied with World  of Warcraft,  my druid is still only little, she’s only level 16 but I’m going to try and get her up to 20 today!

If you want to come find me, I’m on Moonglade and my name is Bleaker.

[older woman, and ever so slightly younger man]

Prompted by James in my last entry, we [myself, James, and Dan, although Dan doesn’t know about it yet, but he will when he reads this], are going to post our favourite songs of the minute, you know – the ones you keep listening to on you iPod or on the car, so here goes.

1. The Streets, Blinded by the Lights
2. The Stone Roses – Tears
3. The Verve – Appalachian Springs
4. Nalin & Kane- Beachball
5. Editors – Release
6. The Courteeners – Not Nineteen Forever
7. Elbow – On a Day Like This
8. MGMT – Electric Feel
9. Kings of Leon – Taper Jean Girl

Those are my songs. There are more songs that I’ve been listening too, but I keep flicking back to those ones. If anyone wants a download, just ask and I’ll upload it for you.  if the mood takes me, i might stick the links in later.

[Hollyoaks]

Is anyone else finding bad boy killer Nial from Hollyoaks, really really pumpable??

Just me then?

Edit: thought i better add a wee picture

[let me sleep on it]

So, I am alone…

Last night John was really sweet, he finished early and brought home McDonalds to munch on and a giant fluffy Cheshire Cat that he’d won out of one of the machines where we work.  I’d been after one for ages and he eventually won one after sticking about £20 in the machine.  I love it though, so it was worth it ;o)

We were just getting settled under the covers, John moved in for a cuddle when it happened – he bed snapped in two!  This is the new bed that we’d waited weeks for, and now its broken.  I threw a hissy fit, then went to put the futon down in the living room.  The darned thing was so hard after sleeping in the comfiest bed I’d ever slept in.

I didn’t get to sleep until around 3am, I was very tired today, and very unproductive.  I did a whole spreadsheet and closed it without saving it.  Great.  So I spend the best part of the day on the one job. Great.

Before John left for his holiday, he went to see the bed people about the bed.  They came to assess the damage tonight, although I don’t know why it took two of them to see that the bed had snapped in two.  They just didn’t build it right on delivery, I don’t know why we didn’t do anything about it sooner.  The guy’s replaced the legs and advised that I prop the bed up so I could still use it, so now there are a pile of books under there, which seems to be doing the trick. I didn’t fancy spending two weeks sleeping in the living room on my own, so I’m glad that I managed to repair it in the meantime.

It seriously is the comfiest bed, like ever.

I’m not sure what I’m going to get up to over the next couple of weeks.  I feel a little… lost.

[if i didn't have you]

I’ve kind of forgotten what I was going to update about, however I do have some other stuff to moan about, so I may as well, eh?

I went to see John at work tonight, I had to go in and clear my desk anyway and get two passport pictures out of my desk drawer. I’ve got an appointment to renew my passport tomorrow, so I’ll need those. I can’t actually find my passport anywhere, but I don’t suppose that’ll matter, so long as I’ve had one before, they’ll know what I’m after when I get there, hopefully.

Anyway – John and I were having a carry on, and as daft as it sounds we’ve got this thing where we poke each other in the eye. So, I poked him in the eye and the response I got was less then pleasant. He told me to get to fuck and threw a chair in my direction. This was all in front of other people, so I left. He asked what he’d done and I explained that even although he was ‘having a laugh’ I really didn’t appreciate the way he spoke to me. I’m still awaiting an apology, as far as he’s concerned he didn’t do anything wrong, But I’m trying to explain to him that even although it was a joke and I get that, it was still a little mean and a little bit sore. If I hurt someone, whether its intentional or not intentional, I’ll apologise straight away, as I feel terrible about it. But he doesn’t get it. Its so frustrating, I don’t want to come across like an overreacting moo, but its hard when I’m trying to get my point across and he just shuts off. He get so defensive, he just can’t see my point and thinks I’m making things all about me.

So, I’m still waiting on a text back, I probably won’t get one. Its times like these when I wonder whether getting in to another relationship was actually worth it. I do love him, but sometimes he is hard work. I usually end up giving in in the end without getting my point across and nothing being resolved. Well, I think nothing is resolved, but I think he goes away and has a wee think about things, although he would never let me know that.

He recently bought a new car, which is fine – I don’t think it worth what he paid for it, but he seems happy with it. At least my car will be my own again. I’m taking it for a full valet during the week, Cara has got it manky with her paws and black hairs. I need to get some nice seat covers as well, to stop it happening again. Since it was vandalised, I kind of lost heart in my car, then when I crashed it – I hated it. I’m slowly starting to love it again, but the lovely valet man said he would make me love my Bug again, so I believe him, just the thought of it makes me happy. I realise that may sound a little sad.

My phone just went off, let me check it…it wasn’t him, however it was a rather amusing joke.

Oh, I also get a new acoustic drum kit on Monday, I can’t wait! Its Azure Blue, and it’s a limited edition. My friend works in a wholesale music place, so I’m getting it for cheap. Well if you can call £190 cheap. I don’t really care, I just want to get back in to my music again, give me something to concentrate on. I’m getting Goosebumps just thinking about it!

I really need to go to the dentist. My bottom teeth at the front are really hurting. Its not the tooth, but the gum, and they are receding badly, and bleed when I brush. I don’t actually have a dentist as yet, but I’ve joined that H.S.A thing, where you get money back. I think the dentist is to damned expensive, so I’ve not been in years, which is daft as I’ve got good teeth so I should really be looking after them.

The new bed finally arrived, its very comfy. I’ve spent most of this weekend in it. He day we got it I bought a new duvet and pillows and new duvet set. The first night neither John or I could sleep. It was just weird actually sleeping in a decent bed for a change. We’re more than used to it now though ;o)

[Tunage]

Some tunes I am loving at the moment. Enjoy )

Adele – Cold Shoulder

The Verve – Love is Noise

Kings of Leon – Sex on Fire